We are all in the gutter,but some of us are reaching for the stars

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Part 9:

Feel the Thunder

[its been too long]

"School didnt get interesting.After that day I nearly cussed out Brendon the drama subsided & everyone went on with their own life."

"What a day!"

I heard a familiar voice say behind me

I winced as I turned around to see Brendon smiling down at me.

"Oh God Brendon, what do you want now?"

"It's been weeks since we last talked & now your trying to make amends?"

"I know what I did was wrong blah blah blah ....."

I just walked away listening to his voice trail off into the distance & blend with all the other high school filled conversations going on.

School came & went in a blur daily now.

It didn't have the same "spark" that it used to have.

I moved on from Brendon of course;but it still hurt to see him & wonder if he is truly happy without me, but of course I couldn't talk to him because of how shitty I treated him.

One day;I decided to press my luck.

"Brendon"

I said taping on his shoulder.

"Yes?"

He said in a somewhat state of shock & surprise.

I looked up too see that he gave me a brief look out of the corner of his eye.

With his back still towards me & practically speaking to his locker.

We chated like nothing was wrong.

'I know that by now you probably hate me but....."

"Ya know Ashley,I could never hate you"

[check last fanfic entry for line^]

Oh god,how those words stung my heart & rattled my brain.

I could feel the tears in my eyes,overflowing down my cheeks.

At that very moment,he turned around to wipe the first few away.

With a sad puppy dog look on my face im sure,he leaned down to hold me & whispered in my ear;

"Your my first & only love;& yes,of course I forgive you"

My eyes dried & the bell rang.

I stood there somewhat confused & dumfounded,yet loved & undeniably happy again.

He turned around & gave me one final glimmering,shiny,perfect,& loving smile.

I smiled back & he turned the corner for next class.

Standing in the quiet,desolate hallways alone gave me a brief moment to gather my thoughts;before i scurried off to class.

Could this be a mistake waiting to happen.......?

[found out]

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its been awhile since my last fan-fic.

but for those who care & read mine

ill start posting again

if you want me too

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[if yes or no]

Part 8

Facing yourself in the mirror

The last bell of the day rang freeing us students from what the adults call school.

Who cares about the reproduction organs anyway?

I thought bitterly to myself

Every year the same thing happens wheather your are s senior,freshman,virgin,or not.

You get pulled out of class for about an hour to learn things you already know.

Detention is more fun.

The tap on my shoulder awoke me from my thoughts. 

I turned around to expect Ryan

but it wasn't it was Brendon.

"What do you want?"

'I saw you flirting with Ryan!'

"So,? I saw you kissing no makingout with Audrey"

"Brendon I have go call me or something"

As I walked away I heard him whisper

'Bitch'

I stopped & turned around

"Brendon don't you dare call me anymore

oh & go screw yourself"

Everyone stopped,stared,& listened.

When I turned around I heard everyone clapping,& laughing at Brendon.

Which made smile like an idiot.

School was finally getting interesting

;)

Part 13

Friday the 13th

Me:Brendon

i.....i......i don't know what to say

Brendon:Say Yes

when he told me what to say he smiled

so... so... sincerly.it just made me melt inside

and showed me why i loved him

Me:..............Of course I'll marry you Brendon

Brendon:YES!

Brendon called his mom.

While I called Ashley my best friend since third grade

& the girl I hooked Spencer up with.

Me:Hey Ash

Ash:Hey Shannon

whats new?

Me:Oh nothing just got engaged

Ash:OMG!!!!Quit lying

Me:I'm not lying Brendon just asked me.

Ash:I'm so happy for you!

Me:Well enough about me

What about you and Spencer?

Ash:Well I went to go visit Spenc

in Vegas.And we went down to the strip.He grab my hand

and he told me to close my eyes.

So I did and when I opened them we were in a chapel.

Me:OMG!!! You and Spencer got married?

Ash:Yup

Me:Does everyone else know

Ash:Nope

Me:Well I'm going to tell Brendon

Talk to you Later

Ash:Ok bye

TTYL

Part:7

So much for my happy ending

About a week after I met Ryan for the first time,I decided to brake up with Brendon.I walked into the cafeteria and sure enough I found him sitting with Audrey kissing her like our realtionship didn't exsistce,or like I din't exsistce,my worst nightmare had just come true.I walked over with tears in my eyes,and as I approached the table he stopped kissing her and tried to save his sorry ass.''Ashley.....Ashley........I-I'm;''Your what sorry?''I said wiping tears from my eyes.''Yea I am.''

''Yea well-well-we''I heard snickering from Audrey,I turned to her and just started yelling.''You bitch,who the hell do you think you are,huh?''

''I know exactly who I am,I'm someone who's about to kick your ass!''She said taking out her earrings

She jumped over the table landing right on top of me.I fell back but that didn't stop me from hitting her back.The fight seem to go on forever,I would pull her hair she would sctrach me with her fake nails.I pulled her hair so hard her extension came out.People started surrounding us but we kept on going.

I heard the very familar voices of the teachers running over to brake us apart.

                                They pulled me off of her but I kept trying to hit her.

''Your such a fake slut Audrey!'' I screamed at the top of lungs while throwing her hair extension at her.''Go to hell''she said spiting at me.

''Thats it'' I said trying to brake out of the teachers grip and hit her again.I looked over at Brendon and told him it was over,and that I never wanted to see him again.

After me and Audrey were taking to the office and sent home I went to bed to try forget what had happened.The next day I woke up with a terrible headache,like I had a hangover

.When I fully awakened I remembered what happened sadly.I shook my head in disbelief about what had happened.And then the door opened,I looked over and saw Brendon standing in the doorway.''What the hell do you want?'' "I thought I told you that I never wanted to see you again?" 

"I just wanted to see if your ok."''That's the biggest lie I have ever heard,'' ''Why didn't tell me?'' ''Tell you what?'' Oh I don't know why don't we try cheating on me.'Your going to think this is that shallowest reason.'

"Try me''I said. Well.....well...you see well Audrey and I, No Brendon don't tell me you....you... I couldn't help it,tears just started rolling down my cheeks."I know you hate me for what I did too you, but-''Ha''I said,"That's just the thing Brendon no matter who you slept with or whatever,remember one thing that I will never hate you but I'll always love you,which is what I hate the most.''And to think on Valentine's Day I was going to-you know what, just forget.It's too lat anyways. I could tell Brendon was crying because of what he did and what I said,"Ashley,please take me back.I love you.'Sure seems like.' "And that's the thing Brendon I wanna take you back I really but I don't know if I can trust you anymore.Ashley please.No Brendon you please,(I said even angrier than before,)please get out,and never come back! It hurt me so much for saying and treating him like that,but I had to remember what he did to me first.

And for the rest of the day I sat in my room listening to the deafing silence of my mind. 

When I returned to school I heard everyone talking about what had happened.I didn't like being center of attention but I knew Audrey was loving it. Everyday I saw Brendon walking in the hallways and everyday is hurt more and more to see him so seemingly happy.Everyday seeing Audrey kissing him,laughing at his dumb jokes.I wanted that to be me again,so badly but I knew deep down inside this was for the best.

One day Ryan walked into my science classroom and sat down between me and Brendon.I looked over at Brendon and smiled at him for the first time since we broke up.

Brendon's P.O.V

I couldn't believe that Ashley didn't take me back I love her too.I'm such an ass for doing something that to someone like her.Her smile is so beautiful,I wished she would smile at me more often,but it's too late.To late to tell her that I love her,to have her smile at me,and laugh at my stupid jokes.

Normal P.O.V

So Ryan what are you doing here?Oh,well I just transfered.''Mr.Ross and,Miss.Baker please be quiet  while I'm teaching class!''the teacher yelled.I'll guess we'll talk later Ryan.Ok he said with a smile that made me melt inside. 

Part:6      Being watched from the closet                                                                                 

Me)   Um.......um.....well......hmmmmmm

I said waiting for my brain to come with up something

''Maybe you saw me at the mall or the movies''I don't know why?''

Ryan:''Oh well I had this dream..........and well this may sound weird but I think I was at like this church and was at someone's wedding and...........I think it was your wedding and then I kissed you!''

I couldn't believe it two complete strangers dreaming about each other and then just happen to meet because of one person.This was just so.......so........ wild!

Me) My eyes were so big when I heard this.I just couldn't believe it.I was about to tell him that I dreamed about him too but before I could say anything he told me there was more.

Ryan:After I had this dream I had these ideas for these songs.Like "I Write Sins'',and this other that doesn't have a title yet.Can I show you?                  ''Sure,why not''         

I followed Ryan to his backpack that was lying on the couch.I looked around the living room the same room where about 2 hours earlier  I had no idea that Ryan dreamed about me too.

Ryan:Here it is,he said pulling out a notebook with writing everywhere."Um....ok" I said waiting to be shown something.Lets see,he said flipping through the pages.Aw here it is,I leaned over to look at what looked like a song.I only wrote the tidbits that popped into my head after the dream.

''Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck

Reading this I thought that this guy had some sex issues with me.

Both of us;Well what do you think?       Well fiirst thing first, 'What you don't like it?' I never said that,just let me finish.  Like I was saying,I um....ummm..DREAMED ABOUT YOU TO!Wait,what?  'You heard me' I said.   Is that even possible for two people to share the same dream? How am I supposed to know? I said. Well do you like it?   Yea I do. 

When I said that I looked into his eyes and I had this strange feeling in the pit of my stomach,at that point I knew I liked Ryan way more than I did Brendon.But how was I going to tell them?

Part 5:

Thinking about what happened in my dream consumed my whole life.

I know thats really lame but when you really think about, you dream about this

guy who'm you have never met and he whispers three things to you.If you were in my shoes you

would have your whole life comsumed to.On an even worse note Brendon

I were being pulled apart we never hung out like we used to.I thought he was cheating

on me because of the way he was acting.In a sense I was right.

One day he came up to me and to me it sounded like rambling on and on,I acted

like I was listening every time he asked.He then said something that snapped me out of daydreaming

                     .

You see I'm in a band,with that new kid Brent

his friend Spencer,and his friend Ryan.

I met Brendon at his house and he drove to I think it was Spencer's grandmother's house.

The drive there was awkward.Think of it like your parents talking to you about

the ''birds and bees''.I broke the silence by asking

''So'' I started

So...........what,he asked sounding kind of nervous.

So what do you do in the band?

Oh..........(sounding a little relaxed)I'm back up vocals and lead guitar.

So who's the lead singer?

Ryan

This time when he said it I felt my heart sort of melt.

I sighed as I looked out the window waching the rain fall.

I know from this conversation my realationship with Brendon was ending.

When we got to Spencer's grandmother's house we saw Ryan,Brent,and Spencer sitting in the garage waiting.Brendon introduced me to everyone.Even before Brendon introduced me to Ryan I knew who he was.I couldn't help but stare that the person in my dream was real.Ryan stared to.I felt thyis connection between us.We walked inside and the house was so warm and comforting.I felt a snese of peace.

While staring at Ryan I wasn't really paying attention to the song.Then again I was bounced back to reality when  I heard him singing about a wedding and how the groom's bride is a whore.

Their practice was over and I was about to leave when Ryan grabbed me aside.And aksed me if he knen me from somewhere.I was now stuck between a rock and a hard place.How was I going to explain that I just met him yet I was dreaming about him.

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Part 4:

                                              My P.O.V

Have you ever seen a car crash,the type where you can't stop staring no matter how bad it is well thats how I felt.I mean sure any guy would flirt with someone but 1:Shes the new girl and 2:behind my back! I ran to my next class out of breath I told the teacher my excuse and sat down.I couldn't concentrate I kept thinking that Brendon was going to cheat on me or dump me for .........for.......... a WHORE!I walk to my next class,not sure what happened next all I remember was I sat back down in my seat.The last bell rang and I went to my locker to get my stuff I didn't feel like going to practice so I said that I had to go home because I wasn't feeling well.

                                                            Normal P.O.V

 I was walking to my car and when stepping of the curb into the road an SUV flew past me,I really didn't get a good look at the driver,but deep down inside me I felt that Audrey was driving.A little shaken up from the car thing I walked the rest of the way to my car.I thought for sure that Brendon would meet me at the car if not at my locker but nope he was no where to be seen.

                                                            Brendon's P.O.V

Thanks for the ride Audrey. If I had a new car like this I wouldn't have to worry about breaking down in the ''jelly bean''my parents call a car.No problem Brandon.Its Brendon.Oh sorry!.Its ok.I think you should slow down,I think thats Ashley,yea it is.Audrey slow down.I looked over and it seemed as if the car had picked up speed and then I thought for sure she was going to hit Ashley but why?We flew by her.Thank God.Audrey didn't see Ashley walking? No why?You almost hit her.Oh ok

                                                     Later that night in my dream

I saw the door open once again and this bright light I thought that this meant  I was going to die but then out of no where I hear this song I really don't remember what it said but I do remember one part I think it went something like a groom's bride is a whore and something about closing the damn door and then it stopped.I never heard this song before at least I don't think I have.As the music stopped I heard foot steps coming closer to me.Thinking to myself that this was my husband or who ever it was I loved.As I turned my head to see who it was...........................No it couldn't it wasn't Brendon but someone who looked very similar to the guy I saw in the movie theater two years earlier.But.........but how could this be I don't even know whats his name I think it was Ryan.Before I could say anything he whispered in my ear three things  1:I love you and 2:Panic at the Disco 3:We'l meet again.I closed my eyes and felt this passionate feeling surge through my body I opened my eyes and saw him kissing me before. I could ask him what those three things meant my alarm clock went off.As I sat up I realized that my dream was like a giant puzzle and that it was almost figured out.  

Part 12:

The test came back POSITIVE!!!!!I sat down on my couch,my head spinning,so many questions going through my head at once.I had to call Brendon I had to tell him~

                                                        *Phone Call*

Brendon:Hello?

Me;Hi

Brendon;Well?

Me;sighs

Brendon;Hello,still there

Me:Yea I'm still here

Brendon:Well?Whats up with the whole test thing?

Me:Brendon you need to come over so we can talk.

Brendon:So you mean.........?

Me:Yup

                                                      *End Call*

I sat back down on the couch trying to get myself to believe that this was happeing to me~

                                                     Brendon's P.O.V

Brendon:You guys I got to go

Ryan,Spencer,and Jon:Why?

Brendon:I think that I may be a daddy soon

All:*gasp*

Brendon:Don't tell anyone,be back later

All:Ok we won't

                                                 Driving in the car(Brendon's talking to himself)

I can't believe this,me Brendon Urie lead singer of a band a.............a..............a.......DADDY!Well it doesn't seem that bad now that I think about it,I mean I have money,Shannon's in college,we can support ourselves but what about the band?

                                                        Brendon's cell phone rings

(Looks down at the caller id)

Oh shit!Its my mom how an I going to explain this to her?

Brendon:Hello

Mom:Hi,honey I just called Ryan and he said that you went out

Brendon:Yea I'm out

Mom:He said that you were visting your girlfriend

Brendon:She's just a friend

Mom:Oh ok good

Brendon:What do you mean good?

Mom:Oh well Brittiany can't wait to see you again

Brendon:Well mom,your going to have to tell Brittiany that I can't see her anymore

Mom:Why?

Brendon:Well..............well.......I got to go I'll call you later.

Mom:Brendon wa

                                                 End call

The door bell rang and I got up to answer it~

Me:Hey Brendon

Brendon:I see thatyour trying to put on your brave face

                          I turned and started to walk away but he grabbed my are and pulled me in and 

                          hugged me~

Me:So..........I sayed as I was sitting down

Brendon: So................

Me:Brendon we need to talk about this.I mean this is a human being we're talking about.

Brendon:I know............I know

Me:So lets talk

Brendon:Ok.........Well my mom called

Me:You didn't tell her did you?

Brendon:No but.............

Me:But what?

Brendon:Brittinay the girl I was dating before I met you she.............she.......

Me:She what?

Brendon:She thinks that we are still going out

Me:Oh ok.................Well are you?

Brendon:No..................

                                Brendon's cell phone rings

Brendon:Hello?

Mom:Brendon what do you have to tell me?

                                 Brendon then turns to me and I simply nod my head

Brendon:Well mom the girl I went to visit is my girlfriend and I................I..............

Mom:You what?

Brendon:Well I asked her if she would marry me

Mom:*Screams and yells over the phone* and than I hear crying but through that I hear............CONGRATS!

                                  Brendon turns to me and reaches into his pocketgets on one knee and ~

Brendon:Shannon..........................

Me:What

Brendon:Shannon.............Will you marry me?

Me:............................................................................

Part 3:

Ok fast forward a few years because nothing really important happened except.............

                                                 *Normal P.O.V*

Me and Brendon were still going out still after like 2 years.He got hotter over that time.Anyway

while eating lunch with him one day this girl walked in,but she wasn't just another girl she was a

SUICIDE GIRL!She wore a mini skirt,high heel boots,and a tank top.When she walked in it seemed

like every guy stopped and stared.

                                                   *Brendon's P.O.V*

Who is that?!?

Shes hot!

                    looks around to see anyone else staring

Ok good I'm not the only guy staring.

Maybe I should stop I mean Ashley is right here.

                                                  *Normal P.O.V*

She stood at the door for like ten minutes like she was like modeling or something.She walked away

from the door and the guys stopped staring.She walked right past our table and looked at Brendon

and smiled.The way his head was turned I couldn't tell if he smiled back or what but,I'd have

to admit I was jealous.I looked over at her and she was sitting with Jac.Jac and I were best friends

almost as long as me and Brendon were friends but, sometime around mid seventh grade we started

to not be such good friends anymore.One she came up to me and said that she wanted to be a suicide

girl.At first I didn't know what that was till she told me.

                                              *Flashback*

Ashley I'm going to become a suicide girl.

A what?!?

A suicide girl,its a model.

Sorta.

What do you mean sorta?

I mean suicied girls are models that are some goth and punk,but really unique.

Ok,so when are going to try-out or however you get in?

During summer vacation.

Oh ok

                                                     *End Flashback*

Ashley?

Ashley?

Ashleyyyyyyyyy?!?

What!

You seemed to have zoned out.

Oh sorry Brendon.What did you say?

I said that lunch is over.And that your going to be late!

Oh shit my new teacher is so strick,I got to go!

Bye he yelled bye I yelled back.

As I was running to my locker then my next class I looked back and..................